Today was my MRI. I was very nervous about this, due to my claustrophobia. I went with much trepidation, much like last month when I went to the airport. It seems fear of fear starts early.
A very pregnant lady came and got me out of the waiting room and took me to a small trailer parked on the grounds for the medical facility. Hmmm, I thought. I never had an MRI like this! (I have had my right knee and right foot done in the past.) They had exactly one machine in there, and it fit nicely. Yet another nice looking young man got me ready to go into the machine. Where are these guys coming from? Do I need glasses or something?
He and I talked a little ahead of time, including how I would not be allowed to move at all for 30 minutes. He offered to put a cloth over my eyes. I said - You want to put a cloth over my eyes for 30 minutes and I can't move to remove it? I don't think so. I can just close my eyes.
I held my breath as he pushed the buttons to slide me into the machine. If you have never had an MRI, it involves being inside a machine that feels much like a very small, tubular coffin. It is very noisy, but causes no pain.
While I was adjusting to the interior of the machine, I realized my heart was pounding and was glad they weren't monitoring that.
I waited for the fear to really hit me.
It never did. I almost went to sleep as my heart rate slowed.
True, I did go to my happy place, but I only needed it to pass the time because I was bored. If I had been tired enough, I think I would have fallen asleep.
I attribute the fear to the ADD from the pneumonia vaccine reaction, and credit the Adderall for curing it. Who knew?
I have no major fears left other than bridges, and having taken a cab over a bridge above a river in Vancouver, I can tell you that while I didn't panic and have to hold myself back from trying to exit the car, I didn't really look out to try to enjoy the view either. Maybe in time, this one will go away too. It is my oldest one, so perhaps it is the hardest to leave behind. I have no fear of bridges in Florida. Only every other place.
Anyone else ever have a phobia that went away with no effort on your part?
10 comments:
I have a fear of bridges also. I'm still waiting for that to go away. Glad you got thru the MRI fine. Have a good evening.
Missie
escalators........and yes, I overcame it along of elevators on the outside of builidings.....got that one handled too. I've had several MRI's with no problem. Anne
glad the mri went well:) hope you get the results soon
Deb
I wish mine would just go away, but, it seems they are multiplying and getting worse as I get older...glad you did so well! Jae
Glad that all went well. Hope the results will
be exactly what you are hoping they will be.
***Coy ***
I used to have a fear of embarassing myself by making stupid remarks in front of strangers. It went away when I realized AOL actually encouraged the behavior.
See? I'm all better now.
I am very claustrophobic and it hasn't went away. I am getting into an airplane next week for the first time in my life and I am very afraid. Maybe I will get lucky like you and it will just go away.
I used to be afraid of riding in a car while a dog was driving, but Molly cured that for me!!
Terra
I found the line that you have no fear of bridges in Florida funny. Maybe because most the bridges I have been over in Florida are causeways! I am afraid of heights myself. Terrified as a matter of fact. Do not like any rides at amusement parks that are too high (other than roller coasters, go figure) When we were at the cliffs of Moher it was very rainy cold and a stiff wind. I was almost petrified that I would be blown over....700 feet above the sea. Scary.
Why do I feel like I could jump?
Mary: I assume the bridges in Florida don't worry me because they don't ever get icy.
xoxo
Stairs.....I have reoccuring dreams about stairs and platforms...that I am climbing up or trying to get down them and I never can.
hugs,
kathi
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